Lol, look at my horoscope Dr. J. Do you think its correct? I would say it is so. But yay for the matured as individual. What a great compliment. J  

<Self console boost +996,845,653,789,313,299,999,999>

 Sorry it took a while to update, Dr. J; I have been caught up with amass of distracting things lately, (fun, distracting things they are) that I barely have time to breathe. It’s good though, because I’m planning not to miss anything 10 days before my birthday. Wow… it’s the great 30, Dr. J. and everything is sailing very well. Well, not all things, but they are minor that I can discard them anytime. Generally, life is good. It’s a blessing. Plus, my mental is so positive right now, which is a great factor. I definitely believe now, that life is how you see it. If you see life in a negative way, then you’re helpless. But look at it in a positive way, everything changes. I believe the predominant factor is your attitude on how you take and see things. For now, I’m in a phase where I just simply try to see every positive’s on the things that come my way. And if there is any instinct that it will go wrong, I see to it that I hold the power to change it to my will. My approach is: look for positive, take control, win-win attitude, if things don’t go well, then accept defeat, grab the lesson and move on. Of course, prayer, meditation or however you call it, is right there in the middle of everything.

 Easier said than done? Correct. But the changes in me didn’t occur overnight. It took years and years of practice, heartaches, journey and experience. And lots of balls too.

 So let’s see what things are different with me now.

 (By the way, if you’re a reader who is thinking `why does this blogger talk about herself all the time? Well, its because you’re not reading a blog. You’re reading a literal diary. So no, I wont talk about tips on gaming, advise on computer specs, IRC acronyms, movie and book review, etc etc. if you don’t like what youre reading, there’s the X button (aka close window) on the upper right hand corner of your screen. You can click on right now. – By management.)

 1)    I push back – a lot

 I’m not afraid to fight for what I think is right. And/or if I feel I’m being pushed over, I don’t hesitate to push back. Funny, cause many years ago, I didn’t have this skill. When I’m being pushed, I simply just sit back, sulk, and dread the confrontation so I hide. But it’s very different now. If you mess with me, I will fuck up your day, and your life. I guess this is what the horoscope is saying.

 2)    I’m no longer very, very shy.

I remember some entries here pertaining to shyness… well guess what, I don’t have them now. I can join up a party and be the center of attention if I want to. It took a while for me to realize I have that skill. Sometimes it’s great; you can use it to your advantage. I’m still shy, but I have the attitude to control it now. It would all depend entirely on the situation. If I don’t see it fitting to be shy, then I go out there and kick some ass. I’m not saying I’m not intimidated still. Sometimes I still get my shy-shield up and hide. But it would depend entirely on the situation.

 3)    I learned to be a bitch

 OK. This one, I’m not fully ripe yet, but I’m getting there. I was inspired to learn this skill due to: books I read; one is called “Nice girls don’t get the corner room” (a book about how office politics work) and “Why guys love bitches” (a short story about guys’ view on independent women). Then there are some real great women/friends who inspired me to be a fighter, not a wimpy, geeky girl I used to be. My old, geeky, wimpy shy self would prolly be scared to face or know me today. lol.

 4)    I do make ups – and give myself the best care

 A decade ago, I don’t even wear lipsticks. I don’t fix my hair, and I don’t do fancy clothes. I was into baggy or straight cut jeans (how geeky), plain t-shirts, disheveled hair and angsty aura, I didn’t have earrings. I was sooo scared to color my hair. I didn’t do foot spa, manicure etc. I didn’t have any jewelry. I was thin, but unhealthy. I don’t exercise, and just basically, forgot to take care of myself. That doesn’t happen now, no sir. As my old friends say: `I’ve been transformed`. Yay, I’m a transformer.

 5)    I say no – and it means NO.

OK. I must say this was the hardest lesson to learn. This, I owe it to years and years of experiences. And I realize that saying no isn’t just about saying no – rather, you’re standing up for yourself, you’re standing up for your family name, you’re standing up to protect yourself. And this saying no just doesn’t apply to people who turn their eyes into dollar sign each time they see you. This is also applicable to things that people want to borrow from you. From books to guitars to boyfriends. Yeah, I realize that, after all these years, I let people borrow too much. And this time, I don’t hesitate to say no. (plus F.U if they piss me off).

 6)    I let it slide – moving on

 Things don’t normally go and will never ever go the way you hope them to be. Sometimes when life beats you up like that, you want to scream, you want to bawl, you want to rip the persons head apart, or maybe you want to jump off the building. You know what my advice for this is? Do it all! (well except the ripping head and jumping off buildings). If you feel like crying or screaming or boxing to let your emotions out, do it. I’ve lots and lots of friends whom I have advised it’s OK and healthy to cry. It usually happens in those nights of drinking, when everyone’s drunk, and just chatting nonsense. Then it comes… like white crystals in their eyes, they begin their descent from the corner of the eyes, down to the cheeks, followed with a sob and a sigh. They’re suppressing it, suppress because you don’t want to be that idiot who looks like a fool crying and bawling your heart out. Girl, let it out! Go to the bathroom if you must (of course you don’t want to be bawling in the bar with people staring at you) then cry your heart out! Nothing is wrong with that. Just remember to sleep after doing so, because crying burns you out. lol. But trust me, you’ll wake up refreshed more than ever, and/or if you feel like crying again, then do it. Once you’re done, compose yourself, move on and get ready to kick asses. It’s payback time.

I do mine privately.

 7)    I’m great financially cos pay myself first – seeking stability

 As Oprah say: YES YOU CAN! Finance is a very sensitive matter to me. And it’s a top priority too. I’m not saying burn and work your life out. No. In fact, I highly recommend working on a job that you love most, even if it’s somewhat low paying. See, jobs are just jobs. It’s what you do out of your job that means a lot. And again, bring the attitude. Pay yourself first. You’ll hear every investor, businessmen say this, and it’s actually true. My financial stability was what I’ve given myself some 3 years or so back. It was hard at first, it took discipline, balls, heartaches, sleepless and hungry nights, but with constant practice, you’ll learn. There is a 180 degrees promise at the end of the tunnel. Just pay yourself first. And if you have the skill and balls, go learn investing, entrepreneurship, or explore stock market, and learn, learn, learn. That’s all there is to it.

 8)    I accept all there is about me – emo or not

 Yeah. All your humble changes will actually start with this. If you cant love yourself, then who will? Love other people, love your family, love your friends, but love yourself too.

  9)    I swear a lot XD – not good

 Haha. This skill was given to me before, but it fully blossomed in Manila. XD It’s bad yeah, but I guess it just means that I’ve come out of my shell. Of course I don’t overdo it. I don’t do it infront of the kids, or my family.

 10)                        Healthier and more active – physical awareness

 Yeap. Another way to love yourself. Nobody can make you exercise than yourself. No one can lift your leg or move your arm for you. You must do it yourself. Getting too fat? Control your carbo. Getting to heavy? Exercise to lose the pounds. Don’t like boring jogging? Try playing sports with your friends. You wont believe how good it feels.

 11)                        Better Perspective – knowing and identifying your values & morals

 Now this is deep. I’d say this is something for you and yourself to discuss. As for me, I totally and definitely know what my values and morals are. And I generally stand by those principles better now.

 12)                        Material girl

 I wonder if amassing valuable materials is a sin. I mean, if you amass great, convenient kitchen wares, or equipments, is it a sin? Who is to know? Anyway, my take on this is that I’m a material girl in terms of value, not the price. I believe the price will never define the value of an object, no matter what the brand of the number of zeroes at the price tag is. A $2 guitar figurine has so much value to me than a $15,000 abstract painting that I don’t even understand. This is a cool concept to teach your self: knowing the difference on value vs price. I have always lived with these 3 principles when it comes to materials: `less is more`, `only buy what you can afford` & `always pay in cash`. This way, I don’t amass materials out of credits. I control and use my money in real time, not after the 30 day calendar account statement cut off.

I also `purge` my things once in a while. I throw out/give whatever things I can’t use, or donate the clothes that I’ve outgrown. That way, I minimize the things that clog my life and my cabinet space so I end up with a new room for the brand new things.

 13)                        Spiritual fulfillment

 This is generally life meaning I’m talking here. I have found it. And yes, I don’t think I’ll depart from it. Whatever your religious or spiritual views are, as long as you feel content, and alive, I’d say congrats.

 Is it unlucky that I have 13 (unlucky 13) things that are changed? If so, let’s add another.

 14)                       Diving – one more fear eliminated

 This week Dr. J, I just conquered my fear, and learned how to Dive. It was a fear factor moment. You know very well how petrified I am with deep water. But I resolved that if I don’t face the fear now, then I won’t face it forever. It took a long while to get myself off the diving board, but when I jumped, I thought `this is it! `. And now I’m learning! I want to improve. I want to learn more. And hell I will.

Diving here I come!!!

 There are still many things to learn. And I will keep exploring till I’m satisfied. But they say men are never and will be satisfied. So I guess I have to keep walking. J

 Oh and Dr. J, I got me a new guitar! I will make a separate post when the picture is available.

 Wha. This is a lonng entry! lol.

These two are very scary ninjas. Imagine yourself walking quietly down the road and out of nowhere you get attacked by them.

To be fair, they might be concerned about the environment that they have cut the ninja costume down to this. lol.

Today I just wanna follow up on a long time post that should have been followed with a part 2, but either Im too lazy, or too lazy to update anything.

Years back, [i cannot exactly remember], I posted How Women De-stress.

Now is a high time to point out why women are stressed. What Im going to mention here are pretty simple things but when added up, can give a lot of headache and stress.

Lets see what they are:

1) Tired of cooking for their hubbys/cleaning the house/maintaining household
                 Yes, above are the things that stress a woman. It is not easy to stir and bat and fry and bake. Women would be happy, or make that happier, if their so-called husbands would just come to their aid and help them wives to wash the utensils while they cook, and not sit in front of the TV drooling and screaming about football like a little girl, or playing WOW 24/7.  Keyword husbands: Help out with the kitchen/garage/garden job, if you want to receive a nice job before bedtime. “Give before you take”. Make that your new life motto.

2) Tired of Children/Kids
                OK. Im not saying dont have kids or your kids are lame because they scream a lot. I, for one,am a lover of kids, but I also have limitations. Children screaming is a one time big time super mega reasons why women are tired. Can you imagine being an stay-home mom, cooking and taking care of 8 kids all at the same time? What are you, the octo mom? Although I dont have kids yet, my plan is to always have a “No Scream Day” in my house at least once a month. That is, to put on a sock into every kids mouth for 24 hours. I do not even wish to elaborate how hard it must be for a single mom with 4 kids. Not to mention if those kids are in their stormy teenhood. All I can just say, “NUFF SAID”.

3)  Multitasking
                Women are stressed because they multitask too much. Yes, you read it right - multitask. Women are just good at doing two things at a time, thus, making them more productive. Have you ever asked why you feel two emotions at the same time, like happy yet sad or confident but worried? Yep, thats multitasking at work. Women are so good at multi-tasking that sometimes, they mistakenly think that their family is their life while at the same time, thinking about their own life as their life. Got it? Hello, women of the world, your husband sitting idle in front of the TV is not exactly your life. Your job is to make yourself feel good, be pretty, prioritize yourself, make yourself available when your girlfriends call you up for shopping spree, and/or go to parks and stare at good looking young guys playing baseball. And dont worry about the excuses you’ll have to make if your hubby asks for your whereabouts. Remember that night when your hubby came home late and he said he “overtime at work” with a sheepish grin and lipstick mark on his left ear? Well, think of the better excuses you can come up if you’ll use your productive brain for yourself. I’m sure you’ll be happy with the results.

4) Finance
                Yes, the evil money which is the root of all evil. Finance is a tough branch of stress-giver that is hard to come by. Unless youre the wife or daughter of an Emirati Sheik, money is an issue in each and every household all across the universe. So, for young girls who are looking for marriage out there,  just a piece of advise: If you were born poor, its not your fault. But if you got married and is still poor, you’re an idiot.

5) In laws
                Ahh, yes. The evilness of the in-laws. I know tons of people having this problem, I hear stories of in-laws manipulating the husband-wife relationship. A global problem that could cause a tear up on a woman’s well being.  Imagine yourself living your life up with your mama’s boy-husband at your monster in law’s house, who keeps checking what you’re feeding his son; or stopping every minute to check on you with her disapproving eyes. If thats not hell, then I do not know what other definition to use.

Oh, but if you’re a married woman who happens to have in-laws who are great, wise, kind and everything nice, and who still has an available son who is around 29-34 years of age, single, rich, good looking and kind, please email their names and address to me. 

Trivia: Even Laura Bush was given stressful moments by her Mom-in-law: Read THIS. In my opinion, her mom in law still doesnt like her until now.

Addendum:

Found this funny stats from WordPress today:

The best of 286,963 bloggers,

315,605 new posts,

381,477 comments,

& 72,557,398 words today on WordPress.com.

72,557,398 words!  

286,963 bloggers blogging. Its weird, its like hearing hums, mutters, whisphers all at the same! lol

a few weeks back, i saw this episode in MYX Studio 23, about philippines’ finest guitarists (i was supposed to write about it but i keep on forgetting) they have compiled this album called “Mga Guitarista” (guitarists) that include barbie almabis, francis reyes of the dawn and of course the great legends rj jacinto, jun lupito and noli aurillo. this is an album by these great musicians that are already around the music scene for decades. this album earned my respect. imma get their album, it should be great!

by the way, i watched barbie almbis played Shapes of Things, which she said she composed specifically for this album. she rawks. she really is a great guitar player, and made guys eat their dusts.   wish i can be like her. yihee.

anyway, i read this blog about this by a certain “coldphonics”. he was able to take pics of them arists, so read more HERE.

“the pic shows a small cute girl with two heads. As she grew, the attached head also grew with her and that made her parents worry. Eventually they sent their daughter, ie the girl, to Singapore to have the attached head removed. It’s very fortunate that the surgery operation was successful and the girl could now lead a normal life.”

is this even true? this must be an old tale but i just gotta post this cause this so freakin rawks!

and amazingly scary!

this is so funny i cant help but post it!

ON THE NEWS

Thursday May 22, 2:54 AM

Philippine police officers told to smile, or else

Philippine police officers were instructed Wednesday to smile in public or face suspension in an attempt to spruce up their image as rough and rude.

The new guidelines were announced after one of the country’s bloodiest weeks in crime. Ten people were lined up and shot dead in a bank robbery last week, and on Monday, a man went on a killing spree in a farming town that left eight residents dead.

“We are encouraging policemen to be community friendly,” police Director Leopoldo Bataoil said. “There is no place for rough and brusque officers in this organization.”

He said police were responding to public complaints over officers’ behavior at road checkpoints.

“Good morning. Good afternoon. Good evening. Sorry for the inconvenience. Thank you so much. Sir/Ma’am … these are words of courtesy which the public wants to hear from us,” Bataoil said.

He said officers who fail to follow the guidelines will be charged administratively and face suspension.

http://asia.news.yahoo.com/080521/ap/d90q71do1.html

anyway, omg i cant believe it. david cook won the idol! ive always had a gut feeling that david archuleta will win. prolly because hes young and most of the judges seem to favor him, plus he is marketable. cook, in contrary, looks trashed and as simon said: arrogant. but dude, rockers are arrogant and trashed!! how do you think ozzie osbourne survived?  anyway, its cool that cook won. its a turning point because it opened the door for wannabe

rockers. david cook is a rocker, while american idol is mostly for balladeers, pop-py singers (remember our fellow rocker brother bo bice?) for the first time, american idol and its voters seem to expound and accept different genre, considering rock is not ALWAYS an acceptable type of music for most people (especially not, God not, in a singing, polularity contest!). guess its time to teach simon cowell another type of music dont you think?  (considering how cowell sorta distates it when cook sings a rock song unknown to him (joke). i mean, its cool that cook always manages to annoy simon by defying the “standards” of american idol; like not singing ballads and changing the “sound” of a certain music. but still he is able to maintain what the judges want: sticking to their themes (like when they were asked to sing opera/theatre songs under andew lloyd webber, and trying to sound original (as we know, when he sang mariah‘s always be my baby). i have not seen anyone taking risks and ending up successful.

archuleta, on the other hand, also isnt that bad. his accomplishments aint so bad for a 17 year old, i must say. however, i like david cook more.

simon’s apology also was also an interesting part of the show. i listened closely to what he said, not only because i was curious to know what he realised what, but also since im rooting for cook, he’s offending me too dammit.  anyway, im glad simon apologized to cook, he deserves it. but if i’ve half a brain, i think simon is either jealous or attracted to cook. haha

its also fun to see the other contestants again. good to see brooke white and michael johns. michael johns was great, too bad he was eliminated early on. he would have been great. ive always thought it would be him, cook and archuleta that would battle in the top 3.

anyway, the shows fun. loved it when cook played with zz top. very cool.

on another note, i just heard josiah leming, if you ever saw him from the first part of american idol (audition part), got a deal with warner brothers. not bad for a crying dude living in a car alone! i just hope this time, his parents know about the deal tho cause as i remember, his parents werent aware of his whereabouts. poor dude.

generally, the show was cool. it was cool seeing syehsa mercado doing duets with the great seal, and brooke white with graham nash.  

by the way, i was so surprised to see how brian adams and george michael look so old! i mean, old.  scary.

dude.

DAVID RAWKS! told ya he doesnt need american idol shit to be noticed.

omg omg omg

haha